j_money88

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 06:14:48 GMT

now everything has finally built up too much for me to take. i cant handle this pain. its not just emotional, it physically hurts me. the worst thing is that i did all this to myself i have no one to blame but me. i would give ANYTHING to go back in time one year. ive messed up the best thing that ever happened to me and ive hurt all the people i love. ive honestly got nothing to live for now and its not like anyone at all cares or loves me. this pain literally makes me sick to my stomach. i just cant live like this. i cant go on like this. my thoughts are scrambled and i have lots of things going through my mind but one thing is truely clear to me. no one is gonna believe this until it finally happens, but it will be for the better of everyone else. i wont be hurting them anymore. my life has added up to this. im just a giant failure and let down to everyone who is in my life. im sorry to everyone that i hurt. im sorry to anyone who has bad feelings towards me. im not gonna hold any grudges, theres just no point to now. im sure everyone will be way better off without me.

David Jordan Martin

damn

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 07:07:35 GMT

im finally getting better. dont really know what was wrong with me though.

life is going decent. it could be better, like a job and a car better.

jordan

p.s. this is the most boring fuckin website ever.

so.....

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 02:24:26 GMT

My sickness is getting worse, im to the point of coughing up blood now.

things that rule..

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 03:08:31 GMT

broncitis and deftones.

today sucked

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 05:47:13 GMT

so today i was sick as could be. i slept on and off all day. both of my knees are totally fucked now and i still might have to have surgery on my right one. life is pretty shitty right now. if someone would shoot me itd be great.

jordan

if someone....

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 07:21:03 GMT

would kill me right now itd be great and highly appreciated. i fucking hate life.

the past few days....

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 05:43:28 GMT

ive really been missing my dad. wishing i could have got to know him better, ask him things and get close to him. i hate it when this happens.