j_money88

now everything has finally built up too much for me to take. i cant handle this pain. its not just emotional, it physically hurts me. the worst thing is that i did all this to myself i have no one to blame but me. i would give ANYTHING to go back in time one year. ive messed up the best thing that ever happened to me and ive hurt all the people i love. ive honestly got nothing to live for now and its not like anyone at all cares or loves me. this pain literally makes me sick to my stomach. i just cant live like this. i cant go on like this. my thoughts are scrambled and i have lots of things going through my mind but one thing is truely clear to me. no one is gonna believe this until it finally happens, but it will be for the better of everyone else. i wont be hurting them anymore. my life has added up to this. im just a giant failure and let down to everyone who is in my life. im sorry to everyone that i hurt. im sorry to anyone who has bad feelings towards me. im not gonna hold any grudges, theres just no point to now. im sure everyone will be way better off without me.

David Jordan Martin